I made a doctors appointment yesterday, had a few things to sort out as well as wanting my blood pressure checked.
I needed a letter to be able to go to a personal trainer, another as a referral to a Neurologist, my cholesterol results, a repeat prescription and my blood pressure checked.
the letters were written, my blood pressure taken 120/90, which was pretty good. My cholesterol results were great, 2.6 and they had to be below 4.0. This was great news and the doctor agreed that my medication can be reduced.
Yeah for doing better............ My new prescription has my cholesterol medication halved........ Wahey
Tuesday, 12 April 2011
Friday, 8 April 2011
Boredom, how I can take it as a positive thing..
I'm going to work these days wondering if it's going to become more interesting
It's been a strange few months, you can be sure that I've never had 8 months quite like it.
So I had the stroke, we all know about that, and spent 5 months going through a bit of rehabilitation. I had the hardest 3 months of my life, and then kept in the mood for recovery but tried to mix it up as things were starting to get a bit boring.
In January I was starting to suffer from boredom. Friends, as well as Jac, were at work and daily life was very lonely. I was happy to chat to someone with regards to my condition and ended up as this as my only topic of conversation. I suppose this is understandable as dealing with the stroke was all encompassing.
So with people not being around I started to think about and look into jobs. I was stupidly honest to most agencies about my condition and spent 3 weeks in not being successful in my job hunting. I can understand ex work colleagues being nervous about employing me but I was also saddened that these people didn't have the confidence to give me a go.In the end Certatech did and I had a job....... Yay!
I go into this role fully understanding what's required and there's me thinking I"m not sure that I can do this' Thankfully this wasn't the case and alll was going well.
It's now been 2 months, we've gone through setting up the program management team, defining and writing process, doing the set up parts for the program and now doing the ticking over parts now and I'm finding this really easy. I'm so bored that I'm looking and asking for work.
After thinking about it, I'm bored because I'm finding work easy. That means I'm looking for more challenges and feel confidant with my progress.
Therefore on this occasion, boredom is a positive thing.
It's been a strange few months, you can be sure that I've never had 8 months quite like it.
So I had the stroke, we all know about that, and spent 5 months going through a bit of rehabilitation. I had the hardest 3 months of my life, and then kept in the mood for recovery but tried to mix it up as things were starting to get a bit boring.
In January I was starting to suffer from boredom. Friends, as well as Jac, were at work and daily life was very lonely. I was happy to chat to someone with regards to my condition and ended up as this as my only topic of conversation. I suppose this is understandable as dealing with the stroke was all encompassing.
So with people not being around I started to think about and look into jobs. I was stupidly honest to most agencies about my condition and spent 3 weeks in not being successful in my job hunting. I can understand ex work colleagues being nervous about employing me but I was also saddened that these people didn't have the confidence to give me a go.In the end Certatech did and I had a job....... Yay!
I go into this role fully understanding what's required and there's me thinking I"m not sure that I can do this' Thankfully this wasn't the case and alll was going well.
It's now been 2 months, we've gone through setting up the program management team, defining and writing process, doing the set up parts for the program and now doing the ticking over parts now and I'm finding this really easy. I'm so bored that I'm looking and asking for work.
After thinking about it, I'm bored because I'm finding work easy. That means I'm looking for more challenges and feel confidant with my progress.
Therefore on this occasion, boredom is a positive thing.
Saturday, 2 April 2011
I don't intentionally try to be alone............
Jac has headed off to the United States on a business trip and I am pretty certain that I'll have a minimal amount of conversations outside of work for the next week.
I wonder how many conversations I'll have outside of work and not with a shop person, during the next week? I'm going to keep a track of this as I don't believe I have any regular close friends.
I've just returned from the airport and whilst parking the car realised that I was going to be pretty lonely this week, I walked in the house and found myself starting to feel a bit sad with the thought that life was going to be lonely. I don't really understand why but it has been like this since I can remember, School, Army and life in genera, apart from with family. This may have something to do with moving around so much but I believe there could be something more.
I thought that I was a nice guy, not angry or bitter but I just don't have the same connections with others, I've wondered if I was just different. Any friendships that appear to be being close happen to go distant, is this because I've pushed them away, is it because I come across too needy or controlling; I don't think it is, but I know that I'm not funny, I can come out with a witty remark and can be humorous, but I'm not really funny, I don't follow international affairs closely, but nor do others, I'm not lost when there's a conversation going on and do add to it in an appropriate place. Really, I maybe wrong but it could be plain and simple, I could be just plain old boring.
I don't have a great love of motorsports, I don't know loads about motor bikes and I don't seem to have a lot in common with people of my age. I had kids when I was in my early 20's, which is really different to most. Now that I'm in my 40"s, I have a grown up family whilst most others have kids at home to consider. I've gone through my adult life being in a minority group. I don't really enjoy spending so much time alone but its pretty apparent that this is to be.
I guess that this is life, especially since I had my stroke. Either people don't want to know me because they think I'm damaged goods and people don't want to take the risk or I don't have a lot going in my personality. I'll see what the future holds but I won't be desperate in trying to make friends. Friendship, I believe is good fun and is give and take. I'm just not gonna keep giving without receiving,
I believe that it wasn't too much to ask that my friends show themselves in my time of need, sadly these were few and now I've got to come to terms with that. It's pretty hard to accept but I know that I don't need others to enjoy my life.
I wonder how many conversations I'll have outside of work and not with a shop person, during the next week? I'm going to keep a track of this as I don't believe I have any regular close friends.
I've just returned from the airport and whilst parking the car realised that I was going to be pretty lonely this week, I walked in the house and found myself starting to feel a bit sad with the thought that life was going to be lonely. I don't really understand why but it has been like this since I can remember, School, Army and life in genera, apart from with family. This may have something to do with moving around so much but I believe there could be something more.
I thought that I was a nice guy, not angry or bitter but I just don't have the same connections with others, I've wondered if I was just different. Any friendships that appear to be being close happen to go distant, is this because I've pushed them away, is it because I come across too needy or controlling; I don't think it is, but I know that I'm not funny, I can come out with a witty remark and can be humorous, but I'm not really funny, I don't follow international affairs closely, but nor do others, I'm not lost when there's a conversation going on and do add to it in an appropriate place. Really, I maybe wrong but it could be plain and simple, I could be just plain old boring.
I don't have a great love of motorsports, I don't know loads about motor bikes and I don't seem to have a lot in common with people of my age. I had kids when I was in my early 20's, which is really different to most. Now that I'm in my 40"s, I have a grown up family whilst most others have kids at home to consider. I've gone through my adult life being in a minority group. I don't really enjoy spending so much time alone but its pretty apparent that this is to be.
I guess that this is life, especially since I had my stroke. Either people don't want to know me because they think I'm damaged goods and people don't want to take the risk or I don't have a lot going in my personality. I'll see what the future holds but I won't be desperate in trying to make friends. Friendship, I believe is good fun and is give and take. I'm just not gonna keep giving without receiving,
I believe that it wasn't too much to ask that my friends show themselves in my time of need, sadly these were few and now I've got to come to terms with that. It's pretty hard to accept but I know that I don't need others to enjoy my life.
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